At the risk of sounding hyperbolic, the global pandemic has affected literally every person on this planet. As a teacher in one of the hardest – if not the hardest – hit areas of the United States, I had students whose parents and grandparents contracted Covid-19, and in our school there were far too many children who lost parents to the horrid disease. Family members of mine suffered through it, thankfully coming out healthy. Friends and coworkers have also been sick.
The details, effects, and news are unavoidable unless you live under a rock. On a personal level, my son no longer gets to go to his favorite places: the library, the gym, the park, Trader Joe’s, or Costco. Even though he is only two, he knows these places are closed, and talks about it often. All three kids have had their have had their social lives upended and our older ones both missed out on the pageantry and pomp of graduations this year. Working from home as a teacher, with a wife who is also a teacher, while raising a 2-year old was not only challenging, it was virtually impossible. Being unable to see our family as often or as unrestrictedly as we would takes an emotional toll. In short, although throughout this pandemic life has been good to us, it’s also been hard.
This isn’t a complaint. I don’t even pretend that we have it rough. All of our problems and issues, while they are problems and issues, pale in comparison to what so many others have had to deal with. I can say this with no irony or qualms because of the gradual shift in my mindset about life. It’s bearing out to be true that everything happens for a reason. Let me explain.
This February, my parents, my family, and my sister’s family got to go to Disney World together. We had planned toward this trip for years, and I personally took the reins on the finer details of it. Excitement was building everyday as we headed toward our departure date. A few days before my family and my sister’s family left for Florida, my parents flew down with the intention of crossing the state to see friends before meeting us in Orlando.
A couple of days before we left, my mom called me from Florida and asked me if I was driving. It was an unusual, but unsuspicious question. I wasn’t. Then she asked if I was sitting. I started to sense a problem. I was. Then she dropped an absolute bomb of horrible news. My uncle had unexpectedly passed away. I yelled into the other room where my wife was, and before I knew it, I was sobbing uncontrollably. My uncle was a wonderful man, and he and I had always had a special bond. His unexpected death was a major gut punch to everyone. He left behind a wife, two adult children, and three grandchildren. Like everyone else, they all adored him.
My mom returned from Florida that night. The next morning we went to his funeral. And a couple of days later, we were up at 3:00 am for a flight to the so-called “Happiest Place on Earth.” What a whirlwind of emotions.
It was, however, on this trip, that I learned something very important, and that is the power of gratitude. How thankful we all were to be able to share in this incredible trip together, given the tragedy that had befallen our family only days before. Framing that trip, as best I could, with that lens of gratitude really made it all the more enjoyable. I certainly didn’t take for granted that our family could all be together in such a magical way.
When we returned from Disney World, we went back to work. At this point the pandemic was becoming more of an issue but still seemed a world away on the western coast of the U.S. But days passed, and things worsened. My son turned 2, and two days later, we celebrated his birthday at home with family, pizza, and ice cream cake. The next day, it was announced schools were closed indefinitely, and we went into lockdown. The life we knew was over. Not one month before, we were in Disney World, carefree and naive. The day before, my entire family was in our house. Now, we were home, on our own, isolated from family, friends, school, work, and everything normal that we had always taken for granted. Another gut punch!
I had an opportunity once the lockdown started to do one of two things: dwell on it and make it awful or seize it as time we might never have again. Along with being able to spend more time with my wife, Jaime, and children – time that otherwise doesn’t exist when we’re all running in our own directions and being shuttled around – I have found meditation to be an effective tool for me to cultivate gratitude.
I look at it this way: I can choose to dwell on everything horrible in this world or I can choose to be grateful for everything wonderful. I’ve never been an anxious person, but I haven’t always been the most positive, either. Starting each day with a meditation puts me in the right mindset to enjoy the day, no matter what comes.
If you haven’t meditated before (and I’m a total noob, myself), let me just give a short rundown of how I’ve begun dabbling. I started with ten minute guided meditations I found on YouTube. As I did those, I realized I wanted more, so I bumped up to 20 minutes. The key is to have a quiet place where you won’t be disturbed. For me, it’s the basement at 5:30 in the morning, earbuds in, Jaime respecting my time, and all 3 kids and the dog snoozing away. The 20 or so minutes I spend in my own head and body without any distractions is sacred and fantastic.
I always had a weird feeling about meditation. This came from a place of ignorance and lack of knowledge (don’t those two always go hand in hand?) Basically, when you do a guided meditation, you close your eyes and position yourself comfortably, focus on your breathing, and listen to a luxuriously calming voice walk you through some thoughts and visualizations of yourself and nature. It really is an incredible tool.
On the days I am really focused and not distracted by my own thoughts, the experience is always uplifting and gives me drive to live the day as positively and gratefully as possible. Some mornings, if I’m not well-enough rested or I have a lot of jumbled thoughts, it’s harder to find clarity – but at least there’s something.
Through meditating I have been able to focus on who I am at my core, which is a positive person. I am learning that things don’t happen to me, but around me. I have learned that there is gratitude to be found in every possible situation. It’s a truly liberating and transcendental mindset to know that my life is absolutely wonderful and there is always, always, always so much to be grateful for.
These are some of my favorite guided meditations if you’re interested in getting started.
Open the Magic Book – 26 mins (helps you find answers to your deepest questions)
The Wishing Well of Abundance – 15 mins (short and sweet, and always leaves me smiling)
Mindfulness Meditation – 20 mins (just being aware, very powerful)
There are really so many out there. You may find some don’t work for you, but that’s no problem. Read the comments on the videos and you’ll see you’re not the only one.
I would love to read about how this goes for you, so please leave a comment to share!